I’m sitting on a plane, staring at the clouds under me. They are different shades of beautiful colors from the sunset.
I’m one of those corny people that easily gets awed by nature. I automatically become appreciative of everything I have, good and bad.
I start to think about life. As I’m thinking, you come to mind.
From a logical standpoint, we aren’t meant to be. The odds are stacked against us. It’s more complicated than I even care to admit.
I’ve put myself out there a lot for you, sometimes I think more than I should considering our situation. Why put time, effort, and heart into something that is more likely to break than succeed?
The first thing that comes to my head is… pull back. Be smart and care less. It’s most important to protect your heart. More forward with less emotion.
But wait a minute. What about you?
I’m not in this alone. We both work towards overcoming our obstacles. You haven’t run from this because things aren’t easy. So what do I do?
There are two options:
- Pull back, show little emotion, and beat defeat to the punch. Ruin the little chance we have by giving in.
- Continue putting myself out there and see what happens.
The first option keeps me safe, but guarantees we don’t workout. It leaves us both hurt and with “what ifs”.
The second option provides a chance (a little chance, but still a chance nonetheless). Maybe we’ll find a way to overcome the obstacles or maybe we won’t. But at least I know I tried. I didn’t let my insecurities stop me.
I’m trying to live my life with less “what ifs” and more courage.